-3ncrypted desire

2009-11-17T01:08:00.001+08:00

I remember at some intervals.. it's enough to drive me crazy.

2009-11-03T21:12:00.003+08:00

All the right things and all the right places.

Life havent been too boring ever since school started. So far so good, even though not doing well with studies but stress is manageable aft all. Uni is so different from poly, hardly have leisure time in fact. Anyway, things are falling into rightful places so yea, i pray.

2009-10-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

trying hard 100% doesnt mean it will succeed. So is 200%.

Monday morning

2009-10-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

I woke up feeling high flying high in this plane of mine.

2009-10-09T00:39:00.002+08:00

Life is like taking a bus ride
Every bus-stop is like every phase in life
The very first stop we met strangers
Made friends, chat a little, feelings attached
The bus stops, people alight, some stay
Often it's heart wrenching seeing people leave
People who were once close
But we still have to accept
For them, their destination

Some who remains in the ride may sit close to you
And accompany you through the ride
Some remain in a distance and you hardly speak to
Acquaintance, somewhere there, somewhat not

And you realise
Time never stops for you

And this process always goes on
Till you reach the last stop
Your destination
And you think back
The people you've met
The people you've felt
They still remain in your heart.

2009-10-07T01:53:00.002+08:00

Time always reveals the lonely light of morning

2009-10-02T02:42:00.001+08:00

nothing is real

2009-09-28T18:01:00.001+08:00

Focus.

2009-09-14T22:40:00.001+08:00

We struggle to care lesser, to feel less alive. Sometimes we get drifted away, we forget about the strings attached. Sometimes there's just too many things to take into consideration and ponder about, let alone solving them. But sometimes doesn't have it all. Most of the time we'll just forget and be happy. And maybe that's what it always is.

2009-09-10T01:29:00.001+08:00

I smell freedom for 5minutes

2009-09-04T01:16:00.002+08:00

There's too many times that i opened an entry, and crossed it.

2009-08-24T23:42:00.001+08:00

Gender and sexual equality.

Nominal or ordinal?

2009-08-24T01:34:00.001+08:00

I hate school. bye

2009-08-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

Taking essential power naps is important ever since school started. I start to doze off now and then even in theatre, till i reach home once i hit something cushie. Well 830s are not my kinda thing but im working towards it for a purpose. Friday friday, its coming.. I miss the sloppy days. Going to school feels so heavy, literally with the notes and laptop. Why do i sound like a little girl who dreads school. Haa.

2009-08-16T23:48:00.003+08:00

What i did for the past few months, working? I can only remember IT fair - Hahaha. Hardly played ball too. L4d-ed recently completed expert mode in death toll okay! hee. and have not been playing ball since eons ago, almost died yesterday sweating out. And guess what recently we've been jamming guitar hero smash hits. Haa. vocals :) So fun and funny! I miss chanel jamming the guitar with her moves and hopping shaking to star power, miss yt hitting the drums like idiot.

So much time, yet seemed to pass by a little too fast. From attending graduation, working, coach skating, driving lessons, matriculating and withdrawing then matriculate again, shifting nest, sending close friends off overseas....zz.. So many things have been happening and boom school's starting tmr for me! But everyone's busy with school alr so yea im like the last. There goes japan trip with my family :( so sad cuz i'll be having exams. screw it then. I wanna go aussie to look for kangeroos! :)

2009-08-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

Its been crazy, unless im not sober

Reminds me of where my crazy friends are

Reminds me of how different my life was

Miss those days at ECP at night

It's gonna be long before i see them again but everything's gonna be over in a blink.

School's starting, other friends start working

And time will never stop.

2009-07-31T13:17:00.001+08:00

You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

2009-07-31T00:10:00.002+08:00

Knock me unconscious. Tell me how you feel, but sometimes you dont even know how.

2009-07-29T01:00:00.001+08:00

mind fucked

N finally

2009-07-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

I matriculated for smu. Evade from those stupid compulsory camps and trainings. These days are tiring, can things slow down a bit i need to breathe. It will get worst and i must be prepared.

2009-07-25T04:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it get so tiring, i wanna sleep. But it always get better maybe.

2009-07-22T00:42:00.001+08:00

I wanna be a jumper so i can move against time.

2009-07-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

It felt so temporary.

2009-07-19T02:26:00.001+08:00

you stop listening to what is true, and what is true is constantly changing

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2009-07-19T02:04:00.004+08:00

What if you can get a legal brainwash and remove someone from your memory for the rest of your life?

With every single memory deleted, the places you've been together before, pictures you've taken, things you received and gave, diary written, everything, that recalls the memory. The next day you wake up feeling strange, walked along the road and you see a familiar stranger you once loved.

Will you say hi, and give it one more try?

Joel: It would be different if we could just give it another go-around.
Clementine: Remember me. Try your best. Maybe we can.

2009-07-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

"you don't give up something you think of everyday"

2009-07-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Yea cut the crap, at least i have 2 best friends.

2009-07-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

Hayley's singing again (winks)

ignorance is your best friend.

At least im looking forward to something.

Yay yay yay cant wait for 29 sept!

2009-07-10T00:46:00.001+08:00

In reality, we're binded by restrictions - family, love, education, dream.

What's yours?

2009-07-09T00:45:00.004+08:00

When we were much younger, we roam around kids' playhouses with tons of playmates around. We giggled we laughed, we fall we cry, we get scolded yet seldom learn. We grew up knowing everyone from the neighbourhood. We enjoyed life's fullest because we knew we had nothing to lose.

High school, we heard we make life's best and closest friends here - yes we do. Still anxious, first day we made impressions. We get in and out of relationships, friendships. Differentiating what is love and like, crush and infatuation, we never get an answer. We found our cliques and engaged in a load of fun and mischiefs. End of high school, most leave some stay.

We split our paths, heading our own directions in life. Meet new friends, meet new people. We see old friends, and be amazed by how much they've changed. Busy with our new phase of life and hardly in contact with the others. We seemed to forget about many things, or being forgotten. Occasionally we meet up, we talked, we laughed at how silly we were in the past, but we knew things were different than before. It felt like we grew, aged, but still glad we were here.

Sometime later we start to learn and realise the importance of love and family, factors that were there yet never. To appreciate the bonds that are always that invisible yet noticeable in the heart. We continue searching and reaching out to our dreams, the life that we want to lead. We study we work, we had lesser time than we ever did. But in fact we always have this same amount of time each day ever since we knew.

and realised each day we grow older, we grew more alone.

2009-07-07T01:50:00.001+08:00

Shouldn't have stopped running.

2009-07-04T16:25:00.003+08:00

Today we talked about emotions. We feel them in our bodies as tingles, hot spots and muscular tension. There are cognitive aspects, but the physical sensation is what makes them really different.

Is one without emotions, not human?

2009-07-02T03:54:00.003+08:00

Wide awake at 4am doesnt cure my sore throat. Not in a good mood ZZ.. Okay never have been in this blog. It's 80% emo anyway hor xq. (She says i don't have to purposely make this a happy post)

So it's another 3 days till yt leaves, to chanel's side. She's stealing friends from us. Now she has got 6 friends, including the koala bear and all. Another lesser fatty in the gang, i will miss the barrels we shared.

Maybe we'll just get used of people leaving us, not for good anyway. Maybe I already am.

Things don't have to be this abstract, do they?

2009-07-01T05:27:00.003+08:00

So its been couple of weeks since my friend chanel departed from changi airport. At least im glad to hear that things are going real well over there, still can L4D and MJ!

Today another friend of mine for 3 years left for Brisbane. I can remember how we got together as teammates at first. How we chilled over starbucks coffee and always the endless topics we couldn't stop talking about, the gossips, the secrets. Now there's one lesser in the clique..

AND WE ARE STILL GOING TO CATCH ICE AGE 3! hehehhehe.

Ok la, love you Kel :)

2009-06-30T04:50:00.001+08:00

i dont like.

2009-06-26T03:31:00.002+08:00

Can there be lesser thoughts to ponder
Can there be lesser emotions to feel
Can those memories never come back

Can i just hit the shut down button?

2009-06-26T01:32:00.003+08:00

Is yay the word? :/

2009-06-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

Great day today, wasn't expecting that much anyway.
I almost forgot MTV Movie Awards 2009 existed.
Catch it on http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/395471/2009-mtv-movie-awards-the-opener.jhtml#id=1611658 ;)

Yes that's right, time should move a little, faster.
Make me blind i dont mind.

2009-06-18T02:51:00.001+08:00

It skipped a beat.

2009-06-18T02:38:00.002+08:00

The Fray - Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
and just hold a smile
falling in and out of love
a scene their proud of
together all the while

You can never say never while we don't know it
time and time again

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian from all that's coming down
steady your hand

We're falling apart,
we're coming together,
again and again
we're crawling apart,
but we're falling together,
falling together
together again

don't let me go

2009-06-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

Red lights, red lights.

I hope im colourblind.

2009-06-08T15:50:00.002+08:00

Just yesterday I moved out from my cave and everything I always wanted to know came to light. I am going to visit the dogs in 2 hours time then to Timbre.

2009-06-07T01:08:00.002+08:00

How will you feel, if you are ever chasing after this ball that you can never reach. Today's hectic, i woke up at 6.30am to take part in this diva la futbol competition. Well everything was pretty fun, it was my first ever football game. My eyes are about to close but i still want to play my keyboard. I havent been having a proper night of sleep since the chalet, gonna hit coma right now. Call me if you need.

2009-05-31T01:54:00.002+08:00

Updates about what i was up to recently, are purely unproductive. In fact i hardly remember what happened for the past weeks. Or maybe i chose what to remember and what not to. People walking in and out, i supposed many are walking out soon. It's really the time to move towards the next phase in life. Or maybe there's too much time for me to ponder recently. There's too much maybes, so much that i lost count.

2009-05-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

Everybody's chasing, that's why they are changing.
Chasing after perfections that brings about imperfections. Then to realised going after simple things are actually the hardest thing to do.

2009-05-22T00:26:00.001+08:00

After 12 years, i finally puke again yesterday night. bleh.

2009-05-18T02:09:00.002+08:00

This really weird dream that seems to be sending messages to me.
You feel your tears when dreams felt so real.

We keep running, but we never keep it tracked to see what's left behind.

2009-05-18T01:59:00.002+08:00

"Become", is a big word which brings about changes to another different point.

2009-05-12T00:44:00.001+08:00

I am not thinking a lot, i am just being truthful. Spare me the comments please.

2009-05-10T00:36:00.003+08:00

I slept at 6am ytd night. Its been having downpours every night, it should have been a good night's sleep.

Yep indeed there's so much more things in life to worry about besides things that you thought meant the world to you. Growing up is a tough process, but going through the little obstacles in life cultivates a stronger and sensible person. What makes you live each day? It might be people you look forward to see, things you always wanted to do, places that you wanna visit..... Does it mean that hope, is actually something that keeps one going? Or is hope, just something that might make one fall badly?

Today i celebrated mothers' day. Perhaps love is still a powerful thing that kept things bonded.

2009-05-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

Little things in life are often taken for granted. Like how your mom whips up a casual dinner every day, a simple conversation with someone you love, to the water that naturally flows out with a twist on the tap. And when you lost it, its all these puny matter that you remember.. that forms the bigger piece of puzzle in life. Like how people are always busy making money, chasing after materials that might not even have a real value or things that just plainly depreciate over time.

Yea how contradicting humans are, when the brains have seemed to malfunction at times. Or maybe love, can sometimes cut the circuit off from your mind.

In fact most of the time, the answer will be much clearer when we just need to follow our heart..

2009-05-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

Do you do something you feel that its right, or do something that you feel like?

2009-05-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

For this friend i met 7 years ago. This friend whom i might not hang out with all the time, is the closest friend i had for the longest time. This friend whom is always making the effort to be around during our meet-ups. The one that actually brings our clique together most of the time. This friend that have this very strong personality that i sometimes envy.

And its gonna be about a month before leaving for 3 years. In fact, we would have been friends for a decade when shes back..

To this friend i treasured, i hope you will enjoy life's most wonderful experience. We will miss you.

Best Friend

2009-05-04T16:18:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how you looked back in life and sorting out different categories of friendships you had cultivated back then. I dont believe in the best friends category, because of its unknown definition i have. Closer friends are people who i feel comfortable with, and can just foresee ourselves chilling and just purely, enjoying the companion of one another, be there for one another. Because life is short, we should treasure the moments and people around us. Maybe its strange enough that you realised you hardly have any close friends, and one might actually be enough.

Ask yourself, who's your best friend? It might be yourself.

2009-05-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

Don't know why I'm surviving every lonely day
When there's got to be no chance for me
My life would end and it doesn't matter how I cry
My tears of love are a waste of time
If I turn away am I strong enough to see it through
Go crazy is what I will do

If I can't have you, I don't want nobody baby
If I can't have you uh uh, if I can't have you
I don't want nobody baby

Can't let go and it doesn't matter how I try
I gave it all so easily to you my love
To dreams that never will come true
My tears of love are a waste of time
If I turn away am I strong enough to see it through
Go crazy is what I will do

2009-05-01T23:44:00.002+08:00

Things that never changed.

2009-04-26T02:07:00.002+08:00

in your avalanche.

Bintan

2009-04-24T00:17:00.002+08:00

One of the beautiful beaches you can find nearer to sg is Bintan. I really liked the trip because the people there are very friendly and polite as compared to our friendly neighbour country..

4D3N life in Bintan is awesome. We arrived in the noon, day 1 activities were familiarizing with the shuttle buses and walking around in different resorts and occasionally picking chio shells along the beach. Night falls around 7pm and the sky was, really really awesomely filled with stars so close to you.. and you cant find this view in sg..

Day 2 - Horse riding. It is scary and difficult to ride on the horse. I always thought it is easy because LOTR characters can ride horses and look cool at the same time. Their horses are running while mine is walking only, scary in a way that it is kinda difficult to balance on the horse on rocky paths. And i think it hurts a little down there while it gallops? -.- Rifle shooting and Archery were average fun.. Went back to the resort and was invited to play beach volleyball, ended up my arms are all bruised. Made some friends - the lifeguard and 3 singaporean tourists. Right, so day 2 was all exhausting.

The activity i love most was driving the All-Terrain-Vehicle on day 3. Hitting on bumpy forest grounds and the you get a mud spa splashing onto you in return. It was a dirty activity. But it is fun driving around the island and find beaches and places you can hardly see in our daily lives in sg.. I'd got a cut on my neck because of someone's reckless driving -.- Headed for kayaking next so we can make use of the sea water to wash up. We were drifted to some coral place and the kayak got stucked. I went down and found a super chio shell. The rest of the nights werent that amazing because I think that the sky in day 1 was too awesome. Splendid.

and i wished you were here.

2009-04-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

Words i can't verbalised

2009-03-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

Inadvertently we met.

Sometimes it's tough to look through all these, but tonight i find it a bliss.

You taught me how to run away.. thinking of the path that was never meant to be mine. I hope one day i can hang that frame in my place, or maybe not anymore. Its amazing how i can still remember.. each and every scene that surfaces as a stagnant piece in front of me.

The attention seems to be diverted, it never felt like this before.
I like the walks.
I like the conversations.
But i hate this vicious cycle.

and we left.

2009-03-25T00:52:00.002+08:00

Someone said, the broken pieces should just be left untouched. Doesnt it hurt to pick them up?

2009-03-15T00:52:00.002+08:00

Whoever says life's like a roller coaster.
It isn't.

Roller coasters are forever high and exciting. Life can be real boring at times especially living in a house of ruins. Cant kart online on wii, internet plus cable tv cut off on a very sexy day leaving me very panicky when i lost my connection to the world wide web. What's becoming to our world.

Everyday we packed things into boxes, bring them over to and fro and this goes on for at least 5 times a day. Slowly moving away everything from the house and leaving it all vacant and empty, just empty. I dont know how it feels.

Well, life's taking its toll, i hope it does so for you too.

2009-03-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

thinking is starting to be a chore.. i dont wanna..

2009-02-28T14:14:00.003+08:00

Just another Saturday. Woke up at 1pm because i forgot to switched the alarm off. Ok whatever, it's a decent time to wake up as according to the time i slept yesterday night. Went to Timbre for drinks and we ate a lot of pizzas, saw a pretty girl, saw "shake a bon bon" and pole dances. Usual Changi Village again, this time with Chanel taking the wheel so i think yt got a better view. I swear i was damn tired, fell asleep couple of times in the car breeding mozzies. And when was the last time i read a book - For One More Day by Mitch Albom during my first week IA. That was like 9 months ago, and i can't say it's fast or slow, everything seemed to be happening just few days ago after the age struck 20. But throughout the IA, happy also happy, sad also sad, stress also stress, no-life also no-life. I'm trying to picture myself 2 weeks later, i really need to plan something to work on this holiday. Every now and then time is just moving at the same pace, age and grow old, with more responsibilities, need to plan our future, need to prioritise in a more stressful environment.. I guess that's it. Well, live life to your fullest because regrets often come too late.

2009-02-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

Im starting to lose time for thinking and reflecting. I think thats why i took the pavements home today. Recently i get worn out easily, age is catching up meow. FYPs over, and i wonder whats with my mixed feelings.

2009-02-22T04:12:00.000+08:00

This is crazy. I ought to be killed.

2009-02-18T02:15:00.003+08:00

A beautiful day that resides in the unconscious memory. Is it always happy moments that are short lived?
So what if doors were never closed at all, can we put all these behind?
Never say life is easy, it never was.

09's CNY

2009-02-05T23:07:00.006+08:00

CNY is over and there's tons to blog about since i cant sleep right now it's only eleven and my neighbour above me is playing band like ceeby, how late already. Right, anyway my house is sold so im moving over my sis place this coming march or april.

Over the week was loads of activities which i gladly sacrificed my precious sleep with. We gambled from houses to houses, played and drank, telling ghost stories, very late night suppers, starbucks, very impromptu bball, shopping and impulse buying, eating crabs (i must mention that chanel doesnt knows how to remove the shell from the crabs) and chanel being cheated for $4 valet parking, a lot of movies and lastly, changi villiage to see ah guas (fyi they are really hot ones).

Leave today, attended school trip to NUS for some really boring seminar. I have to thank celine for her companion, i could have rotted and died there looking at all those faces. So midway very diligent us left after the tea break buffet, both of us went to town and bought stuffs we were not intended to buy -.- We got stucked for some time in Tangs trying on Onitsuka Tiger shoes. I really like this red shoes dammit another pair. Anyway, yea got some stuffs, dined at pepper lunch (its been so long since i last went) and headed home.

Its gonna be busy coming weekends and all. Give me luck ;)

Ok some very random night we ended up taking pictures and videos.

2009-01-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

Yea its over, after 3 years of trainings, bonding, laughters, sorrows.. The team had really bring us across everything. Oh we've got 3rd for this season's IVP. It's really sweet to see the mounting board filled with messages from the team. I will miss gwen calling "outlet" and "chip" and sam's "mimiyan". Ok for whatever reason.
I will miss a lot of the year 3s, jasmine and tina especially (because i know the rest we'll like still meet up -.-) This jasmine better not go mia kind, my last memory with her was like running to the loo before prize presentation.

Ok, for wy's "i know you still love me" - aww.. I STILL LOVE YOU. HAHA. So you better rmb our Europe trip. and 3k allowance but i know its like recession now. It's pretty funny looking back at pictures we took when we were year 1. Like how we head to changi beach or pasir ris park after morning trainings.

Ok bottom line, im really honoured to have my team with me under deb, suat, and cel. It's really good seeing how the team had progressed and grown.

2009-01-17T01:06:00.002+08:00

I finally understand the feeling of 'wu jia ke gui'.
Hiak hiak hiak.

Politics are really tough to handle with.

TP got into semi finals.

Next week birthdays and CNY.

Feb will be a busy month because of my Final year project submission.

Very soon everything will move forward very quickly.

and when i came home today, im dying to tell you everything that's happening.

2009-01-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

When i thought im just dying to shoot you off, i realised i couldnt be bothered. Its been forever since you're like that. We used to be helping you to realised whats wrong, we used to go soft on you, dont go to a point when everyone will just give up that little respect we still have for you. Its not about how well you did, neither about liking or not, it is our role to at least show the minimal respect. If you are still thinking that we dont know how you feel, maybe you should think of how WE feel. You can try putting yourself in my shoes, and freaking start thinking maturely.

Everyone grows up and learn.

2009

2009-01-03T21:38:00.002+08:00

It's always this weird feeling seeing the calendar flip over to the next year. It's too cliche to say TIME FLIES, but it really does if not why people would say it? I guess my 2008 didnt go so well(not to mention i lost 70 dollars unknowingly on some streets on new year's eve). 2008 had been filled with so much emotions i probably dont wanna think about them and never again, ever. Okay yes the new year i should think less, worry less, stress less, forget what im supposed to forget, remember what im supposed to remember.

Its gonna be my last basketball game for TP.. I dont know why it feels so detached.
Reminiscing how we started 3 years ago. Maybe its true we'd been really bad seniors.
Well i hope someone will revive the passion. Good luck? Or maybe 'everything changes for a reason' fits in the blank.

2009 will be a year full of changes for me to adapt to. Its time to pick up the pieces and make plans again,

because i used to have one. beautiful. plan.
it could have been.

Happy new year.

2008-12-29T15:00:00.002+08:00

There is one reason i hate syncing my ipod.

2008-12-28T00:25:00.002+08:00

Xmas celebrations are so over.
So much happenings within this short period of time.

Met up with sh, like finally? We're so in a christmasy mood - green and red ^^

My legs are like NUA now. shivers and tremble. Training runs runs runs, die.

Ok new year is like coming, I HATE.
Town is like forever packed, whats with recession people?
And this gift really freak me out. I wanna suck on candy canes and never grow up. YAY.

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

2008-12-20T12:29:00.003+08:00

Time is SO little. Yet so much things to be done. Much as in unconciously uncountable -.-
Ok maybe its just that xmas is so around the corner and theres little planning here and there. Looking ahead, Jan will be a busy month. FYP report, IVP, CNY, and plenty of birthdays.

Well i didnt have a nice sleep yesterday although today is like SATURDAY. This morning woke up thinking that i have to work. Meow. Then cant fall asleep. Speaking of which, rest well during weekends? I GUESS SO.

Out later for advance xmas "party" at kel's place. I should go like ^^ ?

2008-12-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

Maybe we should just see what comes along the way.
Life is unpredictable.
Like how we always say, the ball is round.
No matter how hard im trying to put away.

Sometimes we are forced to move on..

^^

2008-12-13T00:40:00.003+08:00

Rooftops

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.

2008-12-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

Uni courses are like forever -
None seems appealing to me.
Dont want to think (about the future).
But i dont want to work toooooo.

Ok, -signals a (W) sign-

Im leaving in exactly 6 hours time.
Goodbye hope i dont die.

FYI i've like written my last words already. ^^

2008-12-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

Meow, it's a tough week at work.

For that particular someone, i hope you will stay strong ok!
And stop listening to that song on your blog.

Ok shit i've only got like 14 more minutes before i sleep.
Chants for tmr's training.

Me hope can stay in sg for the weekends although its so very, ever boring.
CIAOZ.

Oh did i mention, somebody has that kb face but nice eyes.

As what i said, the world is fair. ^^

2008-12-08T01:16:00.002+08:00

Today i wrote in a diary, that one used to be filled with so much joy.
Thank you.

riot

2008-11-23T01:38:00.001+08:00

<3 hayley williams

meow

2008-11-21T23:56:00.004+08:00

One day over lunch

k: what does your tummy feels like eating?
p: i dont know? what does your anus feel like shitting?

-.-

Life's like that.

Its been a pretty boring week and things seemed to be moving very slowly.
I still think i dont have enough time to spend my weekends wisely.
God, i'll believe in you if you give me another 12 hours of weekends.
Im still using my reserves to push me through, i think.. its just silly.
and one day it'll just be fine. -Check yes juliet-

My laptop's moving very slowly, i know it'll be gone soon. RIP lappy.

TODAY i've like FINALLY returned TP for lunch. Sweat like some cow can i think its due to global warming. Or maybe im just used to air conditioned places. love school > work. My freaking ipod died on me on my way to work after one song it played - 'Buckcherry- sorry'
Oh. I shall quit grumbling.

Celine is falling sick. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BECAUSE IT SUCK TO FALL SICK WHEN YOU'RE WORKING. God hear my prayers -chants- hehehehe. Drink more luohanguo and lengyang if not pu zhua.

Amen

2008-11-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

zzz..

and my mind is twirling again.

2008-11-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

I
dont
know
whats
right
or
wrong
but
i
dont
care

period

:)

2008-11-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

and what is life about?

How much is that doggy in the window

2008-11-02T23:16:00.002+08:00

Im facing Monday like forever.
Today was out for dog show at EXPO.
Mindcafe for 3 hours it was really _____. :)
Actual fact it was FUNNY. Some people seldom win.
Should try the vampire memory game its really fun.

Ramen at the Central for dinner - laughs.
Oh kiss a sweaty waiter for the price of swallowing some veg, fats and egg yolk.
NOT ME.
I brushed my teeth twice though.

Why did we lost the basketball arcade game and have to treat BJ Icecream on Friday?
Z. It must be _. :S

Im so full, so whats on Monday's menu?

Saturday

2008-11-02T00:59:00.002+08:00

Lakeview terrace is so, suspense thriller i love.
Dont blame me if you waste 2 hours in there.
I almost fell asleep halfway through the movie.
This is really tiring and body's aching - stares like some cat.
And i think i won pool 3 times today.

gossip girl addict

2008-10-27T23:32:00.002+08:00

I realized i've got too much to blog.
and all.

that i feel so lazy, till then.

xoxo gossip girl -.-

2008-10-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

My hair is like crap. grow grow grow.

Buried under

2008-10-20T00:57:00.003+08:00

Full house at Timbre again on Friday. So we ended up at the Arena with this live performance and really cool and suave DJ *drools*

-exclude explicit content- ******************* ffffff

Saturday, night out with yt and daniel, cheated some money from blackjack at yt friend's chalet then to movie - Painted skin. I dont know why so many people say it's boring. But the 3 of us really liked it i know. Thumbs up :)

Yt got so freaked out by "The Coffin" life-size posters she didnt dare to drive home so both of them headed my place to stay over for the night. We had mac breakfast at freaking 4plus am and we chatted till 6plus am before going home. Poor Daniel was typing the whole night doing his work while i slept and woke up on and off. Im dead beat right now.

Sunday was a quick blink. Was deciding on bball when the weather starts to turn bad, and really bad? Ended up playing foosball at Tampines Safra and pool at kovan. Chanel joined us for yummy dinner at hk cafe. So much for knowledge management this weekends. Gossipsgossipsgossipschants. Im so looking forward to tomorrow, night. :)

and before i get really hungry, goodnight.

I'd faced my worst fear, what's next. (?)

Bat country

2008-10-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

Did you ever ponder when will you die, and how?

I dont want to think of how i will die, but hope it'll be minimal pain on my 50th birthday.

I want to experience carefree life at 30, travel around the world provided that i've earn so much cash or marry a rich sugar daddy. I want to experience auntie life at 40 to see whether i can snatch MRT seats during peak hours and "chop" table at the fastest speed. and and and also bargain for the cheapest price for the sexy piece of chicken in the market.

Somebody said that my entry/work is always boring.
Today is unusual, there were plenty of work to do so it got me a little tingling excited.
and foosball today is whoohoo! or rather, fill in the blanks :)

Tomorrow's the day. FINALLY like bball Omg. B to the ball. yo.
It's an excitement to see everyone especially sk! :) :) :)

Avenged 7x is coming to singapore! *guitar emoticon*

soduku

2008-10-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

My sandwich was delicious.

and i played SODUKU for the first time today.
Well i completed 5 of them after seeing one on TODAY's newspaper.
Guess how was my day like? boring.

After work was foosball and then gym at 7. I can literally feel my fats jumping in excitement. I bet my muscles will be aching by tomorrow.
Way to go, its gonna be Wed soon :)

2008-10-13T23:41:00.000+08:00

You'll never fail.. to bring tears to my eyes.

Sandwiches for monday

2008-10-13T23:02:00.004+08:00

Im going on a diet. Im trying my best not to lie. :)

Foosball is really THE motivation that's pushing me to work everyday. The new intern students are.. expected. Yawns i hate IT line, like bold and underlined HATE. Ok what ever shit im changing path definitely else i'll regret my whole life and end up with 8.30-6pm office work everyday. Life's too short for regrets, and i guess im moving on to the next..

Piak, this is life.

Be strong.

2008-10-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

To sum up the things i've done during weekends:

Had a haircut
Boardgames at Mindcafe
Basketball
Watched a movie

It's been a pretty boring weekend for a hectic week. The new intern students will be coming in tomorrow to heat up the room, and it'll get really squeezy. Hope everything goes well. Im so very looking forward to next weekend, and not forgetting next's next weekends, which is like so long later. And my captain celine sim is coming back from Taiwan tonight :)

Bless me for my week ahead.

Praying for everything around me..

you're going down

2008-10-11T02:20:00.002+08:00

Fuck these lives of bitches and sluts.

Anyway, its been a tiring week doing govware. Wasnt that awesome. Anyway, everything just sucks as it comes along the way. Die bitch.

cheaters should just stick with cheaters so they will never get hurt and have fun with one another. Sorry im just speaking in general because i can feel the pain for others.

Someday

2008-10-08T00:54:00.001+08:00

Life will get better.

2008-10-07T00:38:00.001+08:00

Recently i saw your name.
I hope you are doing good.
and that's what im always praying for.

Monday Brues

2008-10-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

If only life were a lil' simpler..
it would have been boring.

and Yay, today i had my virgin ride in a police van, those kind which they transport criminals - hee. My day totally sucked being a watchdog without that noob. Smses saved my day because its the only thing that i can play with today.

Govware starts tomorrow till Thursday at Suntec convention hall. I'll be hella tired, like squeezing the essence off me.

My eyes are like miniature now, even mini-er than the usual.

Bids goodbye.

Matter of time

2008-10-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

As it goes by counting up days at the back of my mind, losing everything i had..

Because things that used to matter, doesnt matter anymore.
To surface between dreams im struggling to live with this very lil hope im holding onto.

I hate this contradicting life of mine.
But still, im putting the pieces back together, for a very beautiful picture...

and i dont know why.
i dont know why.
i still dont know why..